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Right now I am supposed to be:

-studying for a final in an hour
-doing my last assignment of the school year
-packing my stuff
-reading the lesson for youth group tonight

Any of these would be better than me sitting and staring out the window.

Last night I was supposed to go running with a friend. I was a little late, and so she went without me because she was meeting up with her boyfriend. It wasn’t really either of our faults, though I will confess that I yelled “I HATE BOYFRIENDS!!!!” quite loudly to her on the phone. I wasn’t in the best mood. It was dark, and I felt weird running downtown by myself.

But I did anyways. And as I did, a feminist rose inside me that I never knew existed.
Suck on that, Grace University. I’m running. Downtown. In the dark. With no man to protect me.

Among other things I won’t repeat.

I ran really fast last night. I passed some guy running, which only fed to my feminism. That’s right. I’m just as good as them, and I don’t even need them to protect me.

I ran hard and didn’t stop for anything. I hardly looked for cars. It felt good in a twisted way.

Some….large man decided to run beside me. After running about .001 of a mile, he doubled over wheezing, telling me to go ahead, he’d catch up with me later.

I laughed and looked around as my heart dropped again. No, no, stop it, Whitney. Keep running. Pump your legs, push up the hill. But my heart was still in my stomach, and I didn’t care about running fast anymore. I started to become afraid. I glanced around, ready to call 911 at any sudden movement.

And with all my heart, I just wished someone was with me.

It’s raining now, and I should probably study for this final.

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