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I’m sitting in my newly arranged room. My roommate got antsy and decided to switch it all around. The day after I get back from a miserable choir tour full of sickness and pms. So there I was, sniffly and snotty (to both meanings of the word), as she moved everything around. But I kept my mouth shut and I put on my mascara.

And then at lunch my two engaged friends were talking weddings and my two other friends were talking about this girl one of them was interested in. And I sat there, kept my mouth shut, and ate my salad.

I don’t want to complain. I don’t want to sound like that one desperate girl who is looking for attention and wants everyone to feel sorry for her. But all of this talk about boys and marriage and “the one” and all that stuff isn’t very fun for me right now. I’m trying to run away from all that talk but unfortunately it’s at the front of all my friends’ brains.

Stupid Bible college.

This is hard, the hardest it’s been in awhile. But something’s different. I’m seeing Him. I’m letting Him encourage me. Even this snow that is frustratingly late and unbearably cold reminds me that He is washing me. White as snow. Classes cancelled on days I’m sick and need a nap, a text from a random friend. He’s everywhere. And I’m letting Him encourage me in every way I can find it.

And there’s this drive. A drive to hear Him say at the end of all of this, “Well done.”

Not, “nice try” or “that wasn’t your best…” or anything else. I want Him to say, “well done”. I want my selflessness to bring glory to Him, my servitude to please Him, my worship to bless Him, and my love to reflect Him. I want to show my trust through obedience. Show my faithfulness through doing what is right. And show my love for Him by giving it to others.

Oh, Lord, that I may hear You say, “well done.”

Jesus, my heart must know I’m pleasing to You.

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