whitney dziurawiec

Yesterday I was writing a paper on apostasy, which is falling away from the faith, choosing to turn away from Jesus. My research showed that apostasy usually occurs during a trial or hard time in someone’s life. My paper was supposed to show what steps to take to ensure that this isn’t a choice that I will make. As I was researching, one of the steps that I came across was to “remember our formal self”. For some reason, that took me by surprise. I was expecting “read the Bible” and “pray” and “stay in contact with other believers”. But this one was odd. Unexpected. I shook the feeling aside and finished my paper. Yesterday was kind of a hard day for me spiritually. I just wasn’t in a very good mood. My self-esteem was low, I was pessimistic, and I was anxious. But days like this come every once in awhile. I knew the feeling would go away soon enough. They always did. That night, I was out to eat with some friends. They asked me to share my testimony, my life with Jesus. As I shared...

Today I went running right after the sun went down. The clouds were rumbling in; it was about to rain. The wind was picking up, and I knew I didn't have much time before the rain would pour. So I just started running. It was easy at first. I glanced up at the sky. Dark clouds loomed overhead. I felt dangerous, like I was running away. As I was finishing my third mile, the wind picked up. It was almost impossible to run against the wind. My iPod decided to play me this song for my last half-mile: Jesus, You have me completely, every breath that I breathe. I am absolutely in love. Jesus, I am Yours forever, all of me surrenders. I am absolutely in love with You. I could barely hear the song over the wind that forced itself against me. I felt like I wasn't moving forward at all. I ignored the wind and kept singing to myself. I am absolutely in love with You. I refused to let the wind or threatening clouds or sore legs stop me from singing my anthem. Wind crashed against my ears. ...